I’m sure I know what you’re thinking. Why would you start a Catholic blog now, TODAY, in the midst of crisis and outrage and such a low point in our Church’s history?
And I see your point. But personally, if I don’t do something right now, I might burst from the pressure.
In this climate in the church, many of us are feeling heavy feelings, anger, bitterness, despair, disappointment and more. But at the same time there are other heavy feelings – those of responsibility, and a compulsion to do something. That is what I have been experiencing. The thought “what can I do?” keeps running through my head. In prayer I have experienced this guiding force urging me on to speak.
And yet, I am confused. What does this feeling mean? Where do I go with it?
Months ago, during a retreat, I felt Jesus give me the command “Write.” It was clear and strong. Yet, I was confused as to what that might mean. But again, I feel that same nudge to write, to say what needs to be said, to say the unpopular things, to be bold and let the Holy Spirit work through me.
And I am terrified! I do not like to share my opinions. I don’t like to rock the boat. I prefer much more to lead an interior life, joining myself to Christ in prayer and through the sacraments. I don’t feel that I live a particularly exemplary life of virtue that I should give my thoughts. I have no theology degree, so I feel ill equipped to evangelize. I feel terrified of sharing my experiences of faith, yet oddly compelled to do so.
And I think these reasons are precisely why I’ve been called to start this blog. Because God doesn’t call the equipped. He equips those that are called.
So why should I start this blog now? When the Church is in shambles and no one trusts it? When most of my peers do not practice a faith? When the Catholic worldview is so far from our western culture?
Because Christ is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Because the same Christ that Mary Magdalene was with when crucified, the resurrected Christ that converted the heart of St. Paul, and the Christ, Who is King of heaven, whom countless saints have revered in the Eucharist – he is all that matters now and forever. And if He wants me to write about the Truth, then I will write about it.
Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
John 8:12
